I have recently started referring to 2010, as "the year of tears" (just to myself). I'm pretty sure I have shed enough tears to fill a reservoir. Mind you, not all my tears have been sad tears. An extreme of any emotion will usually cause me to cry. This year has been very influential and meaningful, with so many blessing and trials coming one after another it's hard not to get weepy.
A highlight of the things that have impacted me this year
Micah
Micah is just so darn funny that sometimes I laugh so hard I cry, seriously! Let's be honest though, Micah is in his TERRIBLE TWO'S, and there have been moments that have been down right terrible with this head strong boy!
Sam joining the Family
I am so grateful to have my little Sam. He is the cuddliest, happiest baby. It's hard not to have tears of Joy when a new baby joins the family. With that said, Sam is a very hard baby. Sam has no interest in sleeping, and for the longest time he was only happy when he was being held. it has been a common occurrence for me to brake down in tears in from feeling uncontrollably tired from the lack of sleep from caring for a new baby. It never lasts for long though, all Samuel has to do is look at me with gummy smile and big brown eyes and I melt.
Moving Cross Country
This is a big one. Moving away has been so HARD! I have missed my family so much. I definitely have a greater appreciation for them and for all the love and help we received so abundantly. We still enjoy these blessings from them, but it has so hard to be away from the physicality of it all.
My Grandma Passing away
For the last couple years I, along with several other members of my family, took part in a wonderful opportunity to take dinner to my grandparents a couple times a month (It added up to them receiving meals almost every single night a week). We did this to help my Grandpa who was constantly caring for my grandmother, she suffered from Alzheimer's and Parkinson disease. It was really hard to see her suffering, so when she was coming close to the end, I was feeling a sense of relief for her. Her passing however was so hard. I love her so much and it was so painful to say my last goodbyes to her. She was bed ridden when we moved and I was firm on coming home when the inevitable happened. It was about a week and a half after arriving in Virginia that I got the sad news that she had passed. My grandmothers condition brought tears to my eyes several times as I saw her and my grandpa endure these tough times. Her passing however was heartbreaking. And when my plans to fly home for her funeral services fell through, I was devastated. I really wanted to surround myself with my family because we were all going through the same thing, I didn't like grieving alone. Thankfully for technology, I was able to view the service via Skype. It didn't exactly make up for being there but it helped. This experience was a good reminder to me that through Jesus Christ, Families can be together forever. This is a beautiful, wonderful promise.
5 Year Wedding Anniversary!
I didn't exactly cry because of anything that has to do with my Anniversary. The fact of the Matter is November 11, 2010 was a hard day. The funny thing is, the day started off so well. My spirits were high because of the occasion at hand. I woke to a beautiful sunny day, I had a fabulous time with my kids at the park and we had a wonderful afternoon at home together. I had even thought to myself earlier that day that there isn't anything in the world that could spoil my day. Then out of nowhere Micah started becoming very weepy and whiny, patiently I tried for several hours to figure out what was wrong. Eventually both boys were crying, it was more than I could handle; I started to cry too. Something was clearly wrong and I couldn't figure out what. My poor boys just wanted to be held. I did the best I could but it was so hard to console them, so from 3:00 pm to 7 or 8:00pm my boys just cried and cried until they fell asleep. We have had a few of these episodes this year and I am not sure what triggers them. They have definitely taught me to be more patient.
I wouldn't have been able to get through the last year with out the support of family and friends. I have been especially grateful for my husband and my Faith in God.
